Self Discovery

This has been a long week. I chalk it all up to Mike being gone to California. I mean we are normal pretty busy with life when he is here but the operative word is- here. There hasn't been much time to chat with him this past week so our communication level is way down. 10 mins here or there just doesn't seem to fill my "need" cup that only he can fill. I miss my 2nd half. Life just doesn't seem to be as full when he isn't coming through the door each night.

I have had to deal with a few issues since he left last Sunday and while I have done just that, it doesn't seem to be the same. I don't know how someone who is single does it and I have some good friends who are in that boat and with children. I truly don't know how they continually do it by themselves? I miss his balance in my life. My mom use to say "you two are equally yoked." I have come to understand that phrase better the longer we are married. When one person leaves it's harder to carry the yoke. I miss my best friend and hope the time goes by quickly. Life is just better when there are two of you working at it side by side all the time. Doing it alone stinks!

We are very thankful for this opportunity that Mike has been given. I am sure whatever he is asked to do he will be amazing at. I just wish it wasn't across the country where he has to be amazing! But alas this is our life right now and I will be happy since all aspects of our lives we are doing quite well, we have great jobs, our children are doing well and they are happy! We truly are blessed. But for now... I miss my main squeeze!

I listened

One of the hardest things in life I think is not really to hear the voice of the Spirit but to recognize it and act on what you have been told. There have been times when I have been made aware later that I not only listened but I did what was suggested.

Yesterday was the first Tuesday of the month and I have a meeting with the Stake Presidency to go over the months calendaring items. My calling is to pass the info along to the wards and branches. I do a few other things as well but this is my main duty.

Mike has been out of town and so he missed this meeting. Yesterday morning I was sitting down to read my scriptures and I had a thought that said something to the effect- wouldn't it be funny if this was Mike's turn to do the scripture in the meeting and since he isn't there they turn to you and say, so how about if you give us a scripture in Pres. Ladle's place. I kind of chuckled inside and thought what are the chances.

I get to the meeting and everyone is chatting a little bit and they go to start the meeting. Pres. Campbell says gee it is Pres. Ladle's turn to do the scripture I think Sister Ladle ought to take his turn. Of course they all looked at me and I said, anyone have any scriptures? I would love to do it.

I was handed some scriptures and turned to what I had read that morning. Mosiah 5: 15 (I love King Benjamin)

15- Therefore, I would that ye should be steadfast and immovable, always abounding in good works, that Christ, the Lord God Omnipotent, may seal you his, that you may be brought to heaven, that ye may have everlasting salvation and eternal life, through the wisdom, and power, and justice, and mercy of him who created all things, in heaven and in earth, who is God above all. Amen.

I shared with them Pres. Wilcox's book I am reading and how Jesus Christ longs to seal us to him. And that in the end... it will be me and Jesus walking back hand in hand towards Heavenly Father "after all WE (Jesus and I) can do".

I loved this experience and am thankful I heard, recognized and acted upon. Shows me again that the Lord cares about the little things in our lives. Promptings ROCK! I hope I hear and act on more of them.